sometimes..
things just dont happn the way you want them too
you think shes mad
you think im mad
whats wrong?
misundestanding
you didnt understand
youreally didnt know
who i am
i keep thinking bout the days
we had happiness to stay
and i wish wed all be friends again
who am i
should that peopel scorn at me
that i feel the way the way i do
that ignore the world around
and cry to helpless
who am i
do i deserve the love and care
and do i know who yu are
i am
the DESERTED
the LONELY
the FRIENDLESS
thats
who i am.
Friday, April 22, 2005
7:44 PM
i thin k i hate you
maybe i do
took away my hapiness
dropped it like glass
shattered like it too
you left flowers under your feet
trampled,
half happiness, half sadness
why are you so powerful
why are you so controling
who are you?
youre the cause
im the effect
why you
you throw it away
like never happended before
then grab it
deperately for help
i fall for your trick again
im spinning out of control
i dont know you
who are you?
you were different
you WERE
not now
you seem so close
yet so far
i cant talk
when you are there
this aching pain
deep within
where is it from?
my guilty conscience?
or is it my pity
i cant tell.
its you.
definitely you.
you spite
youre the cause
im left trampled on the ground
im the effect
youll be with me on my dying day
youll be the cause
and ill be the effect
i scream help
you never listen
its always the passerby
we talk about you
you dont listen
youre just different
from before.
its new
its shiny
its different
different from the effect
dull and gray
you dont come anymore
youre just weird
i know i am
you call me weird
but youre the cause
and im the effect
youre the pain
and im the hurt.
%%grey%%
7:30 PM
youd make me cry
just watching you
wrench my heart
you really woudnt know
you DONT KNOW
stop crying
ill cry with you
for eternity
you brighten my day
seeing you cry would kill me
i dont know
killing me quietly
muffled sounds
with no idea
you weep
and confort you
desperately
and i love you
and relise
youre much more than i knew
spend the rest of the day
crying with you
dont cry anymore
becuase you wrench my heart
'
and youd make me worse
dont cry
dont weep
because ill cry with you
and because
i love you.
%%grey%%
Friday, April 15, 2005
8:38 PM
you probably wouldnt understand. you hate me of course.
i try to talk to you
all you can manage s a hi
as in you wouldnt want me there
you thought i was mad at you???
well now you are.
you treat me like effing dust
i hate you and your dumb clique
i hate you
i hate you
id hate you more
if you came crawling back to me
you dont understand do you?
left out
unhappy
you make me
you make me water
you make me sad
i hate you
you smudged
you stained
youre terrible
i hate you.
you cracked
me.
my sanity
my friendship
flown away
i owuldnt mind
if you treated me and my friendship
like EFFING dust.