hello.

its me again.

duh.

anyways

i feel left out sometimes

like people really dont know me or who i am

people like mouse or something think they're my good friend and then suddenly -kabam- and i think that serously they arent really real after all

anyone wants honesty?

and this -other- person

she just doesnt seem like sh elikes me as much as others

oh damn

and lauren is really sweet but i just dont know whether shes really my REALY friend

yiling is nice x)

jia ni is really sweet x)

i still treat them al as my friends

and then i relise that really

i dont have many frens

like i only have a couple

and now i think that were not REALLY frens?

now thats weird
.

i feel really

unloved.

right now.

seriously

does anyone care?

that i find everyone so

unclose to me

and that i feel REALLY unloved

and that really hardly anyone wants to know me at all

right now cheryl and lau are still my friends la

but im feeling doubtful

is this a frenship?

i dunno la.